In praise of vulnerability
All things are supple when alive and are only hard when dead. So what if we allowed ourselves to be soft and vulnerable for a change?
High-sugar life
Modern times are a breeding era for the mythical Greek stallions and demi-gods. The constant exposure to self that social media has facilitated feeds our perfectionism like high-sugar drinks. We feel obliged to deliver: to be good partners, excellent parents, amazing employers and on top of that – the change-makers, revolutionaries and innovators. Pain and trouble are not welcome as much as gloss and lustre. Everyone seems to strive for the betterment: of their social status, character, fitness regime, or diet. Even our everyday language has crossed out weakness and authenticity. Most of us go waltzing through life with the generic ‘How are you?’ on replay. Yet when we go to sleep, our minds start worrying that there’s no village around that would look out for our families.
The physics of vulnerability
According to the World Health Organisation, globally, more than 300 million people of all ages suffer from mental illness. Not surprisingly: perfectionism has long been correlated with anxiety, depression, addictions and eating disorders. Fortunately, there seems to be another way. Its path is covered with uncertainty, risk, and emotional exposure. It is called: vulnerability.
The word vulnerable comes from the Latin vulnerare, which means ‘to wound’. It is as if one was saying – I am open to attack, ready to be wounded. Brené Brown, a writer, researcher and one of the most influential TED speakers, says, “Because true belonging only happens when we present our authentic, imperfect selves to the world, our sense of belonging can never be greater than our level of self-acceptance.”
So this is the physics of vulnerability: it will h u r t, but if we are brave enough to fall, we will rise stronger.
Soft and supple
Brown’s words remind me of a beautiful quote from Alain de Botton’s little book Essays in Love, “My view of human nature is that all of us are just holding it together in various ways — and that’s okay, and we just need to go easy with one another, knowing that we’re all these incredibly fragile beings.” It is through risking being hurt that we gain the greatest chance at love.
A wonderful Persian poet Rumi praised the softness of the heart in many of his verses:
“Don’t claim in spring on stone some verdure grows
Be soft like soil to raise a lovely rose—
For years you’ve been a stonyhearted man
Try being like the soil now if you can!”
— Rumi
This notion that we are most beautiful with our flaws exposed is reminiscent of the Taoist belief that softness and flexibility are far better qualities than stiffness and hardness. Lao Tzu, one of the most prominent thinkers of the ancient tradition of Tao, said, “A man is born gentle and weak; at his death, he is hard and stiff. All things, including the grass and trees, are soft and pliable in life; dry and brittle in death.” Stiffness is thus a companion of death and flexibility — a companion of life.
In the 1950s, Japanese society was left shocked by an epidemic of Minamata disease, a neurological disorder resulting from mass mercury poisoning after the fish and seafood got contaminated. A group of avant-garde artists responded by creating a dance routine called butoh, with the most vulnerable moves of a distorted body. Kazuo Ohno, one of the most famous butoh dancers, noted that when Western dance praises the strength of the human body and its physical perfection, the Japanese style celebrates its weakness and degeneration as a new form of beauty.
Love the unadorned
If one thinks of any Japanese word that has taken the Western world by storm, it must be wabi-sabi. This humble philosophy of ancient Japan honours everything unadorned, imperfect, flawed and aged. It can refer as much to a general way of living, as to architecture, garden design and general aesthetics of everything around us: ceramics, textiles, art and music.
In our fast-paced and ostensibly consumerist world wabi-sabi becomes an ode to the simple, natural, unpolished, reclaimed and sustainable. Its purest and most evolved philosophical form would be the Japanese tea ceremony and most famous art form: kintsugi, i.e. ‘golden joinery’, which is the practice of mending broken objects with lacquer and gold.
What I particularly like about wabi-sabi is that it embodies both the form and the substance. It can be about the materials that we use when shopping for clothes, but also about the i d e a of who we become when we put them on. It is the pride that we take in the look of our minimalistic flat, but also the responsibility of no or minimal-waste household that we have created.
The lens of wabi-sabi can be applied to almost everything, adorning it with an added touch of nobility. In one of her art projects, French artist Hélène Guggenheim decided to challenge the global perfectionist beauty standards by applying gold to people’s scars, especially after difficult surgeries like a mastectomy. Through this act, she wanted to show how people could be strong and vulnerable at the same time. Guggenheim’s photographic art show, Mes cicatrices je suis d’elles, entièrment tissé (My scars, of them I am fully woven), is a powerful example of the wabi-sabi of life. Just as wrinkles and age spots are gracious evidence of a rich life experience, scars can be a gentle reminder of one’s braveness in the face of adversity.
Vulnerable urban dwellers
Towards the end of his life, an American psychiatrist M. Scott Peck turned his attention from the individual psyche’s ailments to the universal problems of humanity. And he conceded: people lost the glue that has kept them happy and flourishing. “There can be no vulnerability without risk; there can be no community without vulnerability; there can be no peace, and ultimately no life, without community”, he fretted.
Yet every community needs free and non-oppressive space for people to form bonds and sustain interaction. Modern cities like London or Singapore almost completely renounced community areas in favour of commercial space. Urban squares were turned into shopping alleys, open nature reserves – into theme parks. Nowadays people brush against each other in crowded shopping centres, at train stations or in restaurants, and sometimes these brusque meetings are their only chance at daily human interaction. There seems to be less and less public space to practice free play and companionship, where it is OK not to purchase anything, but to simply take out homemade sandwiches and lay on the grass unobserved by the surveillance cameras.
“A city should be a school for learning how to live a centred life. A ground where strangers can become friends”, wrote Richard Sennett, an American urban sociologist in his first book The Uses of Disorder. As he observed, the orderly urban environments stifle personal development. “Only unpredictability, anarchy and creative disorder will foster adults better equipped to confront the complexities of life,” he claimed.
The most vulnerable areas, which urban planners call wastelands, are the best fertile ground for human creativity. There are oodles of possibilities to turn around unused parking lots, post-industrial sites, old railway lines or viaducts. They can be made into something fun and authentic like art squats, communal gardens, eco pop-up shops or mini farmers markets. Places with the most vulnerable history offer unique insight on how to sustain life in the face of change and decay. A public sculpture park Gas Works in Seattle was designed specifically to rehabilitate contaminated soil in place of the gasification plant. New Yorkers are lucky to have a different unique space – the green pathway of High Line Trail, placed along a disused railway line, where people gather to picnic, concert and party.
A guardian of integrity
In his scintillating book, Consolations: The Solace, Nourishment, and the Underlying Meaning of Everyday Words, an English poet David Whyte called vulnerability: the ever-present undercurrent of our natural state and a guardian of integrity. “To run from vulnerability is to run from the essence of our nature; the attempt to be invulnerable is the vain attempt to become something we are not” – Whyte writes in a chapter on the vulnerability itself.
His words are very poignant. The whole sense of being vulnerable to the world is that it forces us to drop a false sense of power over events and circumstances. As the poet adds wisely: “The only choice we have as we mature is how we inhabit our vulnerability, how we become larger and more courageous and more compassionate through our intimacy with disappearance”.
It makes sense. As we grow older, less supple and more inflexible, the only fresh space we have left in us is our vulnerability. So next time you are facing the inevitable vicissitudes of life, look at your wounds and scars and think of them as the richest you could ever get, and possibly, the happiest you could ever be.
Ways to find strength in imperfection
Let go of perfection via journalling
Reflect on areas in your life where you're holding on too tightly to perfection. Whether it's at work, in relationships or personal goals, allow yourself to be “less than”. Note down what emotions this brings up. The openness will help you connect more deeply with others and yourself.
Vulnerability practices
Yoga Poses: Try poses like Child’s Pose (Balasana) or heart-opening poses such as Camel Pose (Ustrasana). These asanas encourage you to release tension and connect with your breath, fostering a sense of openness and surrender.
Breath Exercises: Practice deep breathing exercises like Nadi Shodhana (Alternate Nostril Breathing) or Sitali Breath (Cooling Breath) to calm the mind and connect with your inner self. These techniques help you stay present and accept emotions as they arise.
Explore resources on vulnerability
Podcasts: Listen to Brené Brown's "Unlocking Us" or "We Can Do Hard Things" by Glennon Doyle, which explore the themes of vulnerability, authenticity and courage.
Books: Consider reading Daring Greatly by Brené Brown or The Gifts of Imperfection by the same author. These books offer powerful insights into the importance of embracing vulnerability in our lives.
Create spaces for authentic connections
Seek out or create spaces in your community where you can connect with others without the pressures of perfection. These can be as simple as a local park, a community garden, or even an online group where people gather to share their true selves.
At home, create a time of the day (dinner works best) when everyone can share what they have felt today - from the good things to the hard feelings. Sharing amongst the closest people is a sure way to strengthen vulnerability muscle, and is such a nourishing practice.
Best crystals to inspire vulnerability and letting go
Rose Quartz: Known as the stone of unconditional love, rose quartz gently encourages emotional healing and self-acceptance. Its soft pink energy can help lower your defenses and open your heart to vulnerability.
Amazonite: This soothing blue-green stone is excellent for releasing negative emotions and past traumas. It's said to inspire courage and truth-telling, making it easier to be vulnerable and authentic.
Peridot: This vibrant green crystal is known as a stone of compassion and emotional release. Peridot is believed to help cleanse and heal hurt feelings, guilt and obsessions, making it easier to let go of past pain and open yourself to new experiences.
